There is something about a new year and new age that is making me feel alright. Unlike most of my friends who had a little trouble adjusting to 25, I’m doing pretty well. I’m really learning to discover myself and I’m liking what I’m finding. California was amazing, one of the best times i’ve had. I can’t wait to go back at the end of the summer. I eventually want to be living out there permenantly. I miss Erin so much and i just felt at home there. I’ve been networking and feel like i would have enough support. I wouldn’t miss all that much in NY.
I started to go through clothing to try and clean the crap out of my life. i brought a large bag of clothes to Buffalo Exchange, walked out with $16 and a sick necklace. A lot of the items i brought i was told to bring them back for summer in march. Hopefully they take it all, and by then i can find some more things to get rid of. I don’t wear most of the things in my room and it just annoys me that there is so much in here.
I bought cool art in LA and i need to get a few frames for the things i bought and the two wooden postcards i had. I think instead of collecting clothing, i’m going to expand my wall art, books and tattoo collection.
I really need to be looking into applying for grad school for the fall and not being hungover in bed. I suppose i can just bust my ass this week. I want to hurry up and finish my master’s so i can apply for jobs out west, see what i can get and see what the salaries will be. Right now i’m doing so well, i work hard but i’m doing well - i really dont want to take a pay cut. Additionally, i really want to get my butt up early saturday to get to MCU so that i can try and get a consolidation loan and really start to plan to get rid of debt. I have to grab my W2 from work tomorrow on lunch as well so that i can make an appointment for my taxes to be done. Keeping my fingers so crossed that i get a huge return.
goals. goals goals. eye on the prize. stay afloat <3
work made me cry tonight. Not because i worked 14 hours or still have a ton of work to do… but because i realize some decisions are really hard to make but must be made.
working until 11 PM didnt seem soooo bad last night. this morning… its BAD. too much to do, and not enough time to get it all done.
oh lord, give me strength, aka COFFEE!
…but thank god for baseball.
if only my head could spit out how im feeling right now, and if only people could even understand it.
i really do not like sunday nights. why did this weekend go so freaking fast? i’m the biggest bum out ever right now. i decided that i pretty much hate everyone. i think everyone is an idiot. i cant stand how i was on a roll for a month then crash and burn. i want to get tattooed, not in three weeks.. now. i bought bamboo with jodi today. we put marbels in them. They fucking rock. im so happy to look at it. it sort of reminds me of someone though. but whatever. my nails are so long i hate it, but im lazy. where is my roommate erin? this was stupid and random. i should go to bed but then i’ll wake up and it’ll be monday. i wish i had a billion windows because its so nice outside.
I WOKE UP this morning at 345 am, with nausea. all i could think about is that i was going to throw up and i had swine flu. I tried to throw up to no avail, and realised… its probably just gas. Thank god its not the swine!!!
I am so tired. I just want to sleep all day long. This weather is absolute bullllshittt. Why do i have so much to do today?
Im going by my new cookie motto “A day of worrying is more exhausting than a week of work”. Not worrying anymore… but keeping my fingers crossed <3
Thank goodness it’s not monday, but 4 day weeks have a habit of going by reallllyyy slow. I’m hoping that that doesn’t happen. I’m especially hoping today and tomorrow FLY by so i can see a certain someone.
Back to work! too bad i cannot stay in bed and lay in the beautiful breeze coming in through my window.
I am happy.
This week ruled. by the time i got back to LI, the 1/2 of my friday off was basically over. None the less, saw some crazy stuff, some stuff that made me want to cry and some stuff i just never thought i’d see this week. Crime scenes are crazy, rapes are heinous and copaphelia is disgusting. Back to the real world monday tuesday.
