12th
TGIF?
I don’t know what happened to this week, but im not complaining. I will be the first person to say that I love my job (ok, not always, but it wouldnt be normal if i did), but i swear i work to just get to the weekend. I always hated that in retail it was so hard never knowing my next day off, but i also used to be intrigued, and dread a little, working for the weekend. I don’t mind it so much now.
My new case is so interesting in that it is so clinical. I feel like i’m learning a lot from it. I think i selected paid overtime for today…I sort of hope so because i didn’t finish until ten. My client walked me to my car…and i wasn’t scared. That’s how you know good people.
I have come to believe that if i didn’t internerd stalk i’d never talk to any dudes. Fear of rejection i think? Mr. Donofrio told me that i’m super rational and logical. He said i need to work on strengthening that side of myself. It’s good to know i KNOW what the right decision is, but shitty that i still have to question myself or let the devil on my shoulder win the battle.
California is still haunting me. I wonder what will make it just go away. The “thank you” card and duplicate pictures are still sitting on the dining room table. I wonder if they will sit there forever, or if i’ll suck it up and deal with it anytime soon. I feel like it would make me feel better…that and unpacking. Yes, i said unpacking. Tomorrow is a month since i’ve bene home. I guess that’s part of my own issues. Probably, that if i unpack… it’s really over. It’s going to happen this weekend… along with some clean house of more clothing. I donated a bunch to my step-dad’s coworker and she called me yesterday thanking me. I’m glad it helped her out instead of going to like… Goodwill where all the cool kids will buy it.
I do not need to be awake right now AT ALL! I hope this is a fun weekend. I feel like the weekends are so important to have some fun since i do NOTHING during the week.
10-4.
PS i was offered the chance to buy opening day (+14 weeknight tickets) today. $568 a seat. I really hope one day i’m in a big bucks position. Damnnnn…
